But. If not, here it goes:

1. Event is at  Gallery XIV, which has a cool Abraham Obama exhibit going on.

2. Italian Wine tasting is from 6 to 7 PM. Afterwards we'll have more wine, but it will be different than the wine we were tasting.

3. Everything will be </a>streamed online real time (this is 2008, people), so if you're laid up with a broken like my boyfriend, you can still watch.

4. Music will be on tap from the lovely jazz vocalist Nicole Zuraitis.

5. OYFPers are fun. No, really. We are.

Wow, it's been awhile, Live Journal. Who knew when I briefly used you in college as part of my love of the thing known as the "internet" that I would one day be working in online marketing. THE INTERNET IS MY LIFE. :-)  But not in that sketchy way, in the way that I work at a marketing agency and analyze websites all day long.

Anyway. I'm not about to start journaling again on this thing. I already spend enough time updating my non-profit's blog Volunteer Boston: Get On Your Feet, and my personal blog Smazzle a Day. If you're interested in what i'm doing now (almost 8 years after I started this journal), look there.

That being said, I have found the community associated with LJ to be quite helpful... and I'm sure I'll be around these parts frequently.

it is so sad when you are hopping all around your apartment giggling but no one is there to giggle with you. but it makes me happy when christy and her roomie stops by! hence the giggling. ha. i still laugh. i think i will go to bed now.. one more one more one more one more one more why is it so painfuL. WHY i like organic but not to cram. shezam.
also sadnesss - i will get a b in physics. no 4.0 . nooooooo.
ONE MORE 6am arising tomorrow me thinks

and the stalking keeps on going, much to everyone's relief. the other night in starbucks we walk in randomly and who walks in behind us but bluewall boy 1. i was like good lord this is ridiculous. i am destined to see this guy at every coffe establishment in a 50 mile radius.
but this weekend was great man. lots of fun, lots of men, so the two might have been linked.. maybe.. :-P but seriously, wicked fun. 8.5 hours at the mall. that was the highlight i tell you.

let this be a warning to you all: always brush teeth twice a day with an electric toothbrush but not in a back and forth motion in an up and down motion instead, floss DEEPLY into your gums, and dont eat a lot of sugar. or you could be sad. so sad. so pain.

ok enough of this procrastination technique. i really never have anyting interesting to say here.. it's just easier than writing it down in a real journal. hm. something to consider.

and that's all i have to say about that, right, like i could shut my mouth if i wanted to it just keeps on coming out the shit the grit the fucking pit
i hate knowing people are having fun without me because damn it i want to have fun too . i stop myself, i'm my own barrier. but you know what, at least i can change that, that being myself. those people that blame everything but themselves get nowhere, not to say i am getting anywhere, going anywhere, being anyone but myself .
pink sweater day today just to tell myself YES i can wear pink, bright pink, bright look at ME pink because i want you to .

blue wall boyz 1 and 2 were present today. i swear i run into people at the weirdest places. bluewall boy 1 at a small xmas party friday, the next night bluewall boy 2 on the streets of amherst at 2 am saturday[sunday] morning. the crazy thing is that they recognized me too. they still have no names, and i am too chicken too scared to say anything. 2 weeks left until break. so short!

leptin baby here i come

I went to the Amherst College campus today. It was silent. THe scientific journals weren't kept in a secret room either. I guess Amherst students don't steal.. ironically that is the very reason i was forced to go there in the first place. THe volume of the journal that i needed was missing at umass. MIssing for at least a week. those ghetto kids.
I couldn't help but think that college was supposed to be more like it looks like at amherst. Rolling green hills, tall oaks, and lots of brick buildings with pillars. It seemed isolated from the real world. I couldn't even hear traffic. UMass seems so.. raunchy in comparision. How do amherst kids feel when they graduate? Doesn't the real world seem dirty and hard after the cushioney life they've had at Amherst? If anything UMass has prepared me for that. Things don't always work here. You have to go through a lot of red tape. You have to wait in lines. You don't always get what you want, but you might get something better by accident. You might get to live in the ghetto. But wouldn't it have been nice to be a little bit more protected for 4 more years? Or were we all ready to grow up [mostly].

I love it when i get all contemplative and psuedo thoughtful and really corny

Sometimes I wonder what happened to the Casey of high school. She was more optimistic, more insecure, more bubbly. She was more naive. She was nicer. She wanted to make people laugh. She was more hopeful, more caring, more young. She was blunt. She was silly. She was angry.

Now she is still silly. She is harder and more obsessive. She cares less about people, perhaps because she knows only knows 1% of the people she comes into daily contact with. She is more secure about herself, less secure about her future. She is older. She remembers almost every face she sees at least once. She has better fashion sense. She is smarter, and knows it. She is still blunt, and angry. She is a better friend, but a lesser acquiantence.

Sometimes the Casey of today wishes she was the Casey of yesterday, but most of the time, not. Most of the time she wishes the Casey of yesterday was more like the Casey of today. With less hardness, less sharpness. More sassiness. More confidence.

Where do we come from, where do we go?

i have a longing for

?

I went to the atm today. It was fun. I didn't take out any money! what an amazing fact. But that's not the funny part. i take my reciept, look at it, and walk out. I cross the street. 5 seconds later this guy runs up behind me - "Hey were you just at the ATM?" and hands me my card. Riiiiiight i felt SUPER smart let me tell you.
i like my new shoes. They are very comfie. And i am not a 9 and a half, try adding 1 to that, but they fit perfectly. how that makes me happy.
slight other problem about the ATM - i think I'm still getting paid by my last job.. i know i had some back checks.... but i think they're still paying me. Hmm.. the lab does have an unlimited budget.. ok so i'm going to call my boss and fess up. But it's not my fault, really i swear.

latas yo :-P

ps TFTL

baaaaaaahhhh HUMBUG i am frustrated. I think it is because i am overfull from dinner and snacks BAHHh and stuff and diet pepsi ICK IVK ICK combined with a retarded lab report for psych 241. Why why why do we get the hard TA and have to actually LEARN something? what is this foreign concept? learning?> NO!! i dont want to learn about jury simulation or how to write a frikken paper to APA guidelines. Though i will be miles ahead of lots of bio majors who never get this.. tee hee hee hee [evil laugh]

i am so tired too. That's what going to bed at like 930 every night at home does to you. Actually wait i went to bed 130 am last night and slept with fat sophie meaning i DIDn'T sleep and got up at 630AM. Isn't it nice to know that when you leave for college the dog takes over your bed. HA. i laugh. but i cry.

But anyway the weekend was nice. The rents were cool, actually just 2 siblings were kind of wacko. Went skiing with noah it was fun. Matt and Jim wore the bearsuit skiing down okemo. It was funny. Everywhere there were cries "there's the bear" "ahhh the bear ran over my skiis." It was quality. I was 18 for the, like, day, or something!? $6 cheaper for the lift ticket. niiiice. I heart skiing so much.

my eyelids droop.. i want to do at least some reading and mmaybe part of one other lab.. ahh orgo lab is wicked scary this week.. noooooo stop thinking about it.. must sleep.. iheart thanksgiving... i don't heart group papers... ya all go to heck :--:--:

major roommate issues.. sadness and pain. nothing we can't work through, but it's the kind of thing you can gloss over and not work through instead of going at it. And the main perpetrator of the problem just glossed over it.. what to do what to do..

"The world is headed for mutiny, when all we want is unity. We may rise and fall, but in the end, we'll meet our fate together." - One

Hm la la. Organic lab took me a decade and a half to finish tonight. I think it was ebcause i forgot that elizabeth was staying on campus to study with berkley and so subconciously i was worried about her, or at least, not able to concentrate. When she came home i was nose to the grindstone ish. The prelab was a bitch though.

um so i heart dogs a lot. Anyone need a dogsitter, i would do it for free i swear. I took care of the graduate student who i work with's dog, and i loved it. yay dogs. There's another guys taking care of him now, and i'm worried that he's not doing a good enough job and it's not even my dog! dedication, i tell you.

I heart wilma is now officially a tshirt. Berkely and eliz and i went to lunch in north hampton and i found a RED tshirt at Faces that said simply I (heart) ______ and it came with a washable marker so every time you wash it you can change what is says! FUNNESS! and all for the magic price of $9.99 . But now tis the season for giving. Naughty me. I looked for a nose ring, but sadly enough i am mucho allergic to the 8% of sterling silver that is not silver so i itch like a maniac if i wear silver and that is ALL anyone has. HELLO STAINLESS STEEL EVERYONE it was invented way back in the day let's join the 21st century and use it! enough i am not from detriot so i will stop plugging the steel industry.

i still feel naseous.. could it be that lovely post nasal drip? oh yes it could. kendra i hope you feel loads better and we all know that you will be ACING your midterm tomorrow, you mofo beech tree.

i have nothing worthwhile to say to this world at this moment.. or ever?

i yam a tool i sat around all weekend in front of the television, leaving only to go to CVS, to the house of the dog which i was takingc are of, the transit party, and brueggar's bagels. mmmmm. But for half the weekend i was/am sick. BLACH. I DO NOT LIKE IT.
However, i did manage to clean our oven. How many 20year olds do you know that clean ovens? well here's one. BEWARE of oven cleaner. If you breathe it in at all it feels like 1000 knives in your lungs, and if your arm brushes up against it you get nasty burns that scab over the next day and continue to look nasty. eewwwww. and it hurts too. sadness and pain.
let's see what else have i been up to.. NOTHING. OH THAT"S RIGHT. My roommate has had more dates in the past 2 weeks than i can count on two hands.. and that makes me very happy for her, but a little sad for me. i am not a shy person - i talk to many peoples. so why? i still question why? i will work on it. i guess i cana be intimidating sometimes. but who gives a flying fuck about intimidation. if someone's intimidated by me than a. they dont know me very well, and b. i don't know if i want to know them. so there.
ok i have a headache. i want coffee. i want to go out to breakfast. but unfortunately my roommate and her date are sleeping on the futon in the middle of the living room, which is effeectively in the middle of the kitchen too. oh the pain. maybe i will go out then. hmm. ok BYE sorry i be so broing

(comment from kennie's journal that i left for her)
"i write letters for peta "
Kendra please please please please DO NOT SAY you write letters for PETA. They are the worst worst worst worst worst organization ever. I mean it. THE WORST. Lots of times they pose as researchers to get into labs and do thousands of dollars of damages. In fact, in one specific case in Pennsylvania, the PETA person stole rats out of their cages where they had food, water, painkiller, etc, and put them in a drawer in his hotel room. IN A DRAWER. WHERE THEY DIED. DIED. DEAD. Because they had had a stomach operation that needed caring for. They were being cared for in the lab. They could not live outside the lab. The PETA person essentially killed them "in the name of animal rights."
In another case, the founder of PETA, Alex Pacheo (sp?), posed as a student interested in research (as is typical). WHen the head researcher went on vacation, Pacheo let the conditions deteriote to ABISMAL levels. He took pictures, and blamed the conditions on Taub even though HE HIMSELF CAUSED THEM. He also put a monkey in a chair device improperly, and then took a picture and used it for propaganda. Pacheo then took the head researcher to court on charges of animal cruelty. Cruelty that HE HIMSELF CAUSED. ALl charges were dropped against the researcher. HELLO!!!!!! This guy is supposed to be AGAINST pain and suffering, and here he is causing it. He (or one of the other founding PETA members) once said that "the animals are kept in excellent conditions." PETA members don't even think that you should have your darling little cats, or dogs. SOphie should be let out in the wild because nothing should be behind bars.

I have an article you need to read so that you can learn about PETA. It's a pretty fair article to both sides, but i think there's a LOT people don't know about these militant animal rights organizations. The Animal Liberation Bsomething in England, which is strongly tied to PETA, is VERY violent. They bomb people, labs, animal facilities, killing people AND animals. Is this what you support?

[the article is called "Beyond Cruelty" by Katie McCabe, The Washingtonian, February 1990]
more on this later. I am by no means advocating the use/waste of animals, but the majority of people are seriously undereducated on the topic. Just today i went to a meeting about animal care; i would say i am faced with the topic of animal rights every day. ALl the rats i know live in far better conditions than conditions you find many pets in, or animals in slaughterhouses. 0.3% of animals are used in research; most are used for your dinner and shoes, as kendra would put it.
ok enough ranting. physics test tomorrow.

ps rugby game sunday let's go!

can i just say that i love it when a someone tells you that they will study with you at 8pm but instead go to a booty call at 4pm and don't go to the 7pm review session for the test tomorrow and don't study with me as previously negotiated and don't call even though there is FREE access to a phone. I think the worst part is that this person was planning on not showing up not coming back not meeting her measly verbal commitment to me. HER TOOTHBRUSH IS NOT HERE . the ultimate betrayl. I would [almost] rather hate a person than be disappointed by her.

the sound... of silence. not even simona nd garf anymore

as much as i heart all my roommates, i heart the loveliness of being alone sooo much. SO MUCH.

today i read 2 books, unassigned, out of class, voluntary reading. why, you may ask, why when you have 3 tests 2 lab reports and work at 645 am twice next week? oh wait i'm not even paid to work with the ratties. i love it love it love it. tomorrow i'm hitting the books baby.

the sound.. of silence.. even atlantis is pretty quiet tonight. SWEET SWEET SWEET like the sugar free gum like the sugar free fun like the sugar free numb

so sleepy

i feel like a drippy nose drip drip drip drip dirp drip dirp dirp i prefer dirpping to dripping. dripping is too slow too long too much patience.

we watched a video about autistic children today in learning and thinking. it was amazing - what the parents, the therapists, and the children themselves go through. and thanks to treatment, some autistic children have 'normal' lives. hm. hope perserveres.

i think i might do peace corps when i graduate. i wonder if i would be good at it. i hope so; i think so.

18 page lab report on sexual promiscuity. ouch. too long. whatever.

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i am tired. more 'learning and thinking' to do. a ha ha ha ha. must keep the average in that class up because i'm taking a class with him next semester.

chocolate chips and red pens and blue blood and black hearts
tired of shit tired of poop tired of things i dont care about but most of all tired of things i do care about it wears you out man

Well i hope everyone had fun at the party. I did, and i feel great today! kennie you can have your spiderwebs back, thank you so much. THe apartment is back to normal mmostly. There were ELEVEN people sleeping here last night, including the 4 people who lived here. I only didnt know one person that was here - victory! I think the party was good though. We have lots of beer leftover, if anyone wants some let me know, we sell for cheap. :-P This morning i woke up at 9 am, including time change, and left the apartment for 2 hours, came back, and everyone had gotten up. We were all (mostly) cleaning, one girl wasnt (a semi-hostess), she was hung over. Ok, that's fine, she's hung over, i understand. I offered her my bed, she says No thanks, i dont want to move. SHE WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE LIVING ROOM. So then megan and i are talking about something, and she feels the need to argue as well. So i say something rude to her about if she's not going to get up and help, she should keep her trap shut. it was bitchy, and i shouldn't have said it, but i did. Oh well. That's life - most people were thinking it anyway, i should have just said it tactfully. But we all know that that's not my strong point.
But anyway. I think it was good. I wish certain people had come - nick for one. I am just sad about him. I im-ed him, called him, and he just ignores it. Next time i see hime i'm sure he'll say "oh i was busy with band stuff etc etc" but whatever. I'm done with him. Jess can take over, I give in. I'm just really upset that a friendship that's held up through high school and most of college is going to go down the tubes. But if he has made his choice, than fine. I am not doing anything else. Sadness. AND pain. Tear.
this really depresses me. Head Nurse give me some drugs, and none of that pansy herbal shit that Dr Love dispenses.
Ok enough. I have photos at 1hr CVS that should be done soon. Yyay!!!! bye bye peoples i hope you enjoy yourself today

I hate physics owls when you dont know how to get the answer and try and cheat but its so boring and frustrating. i also hate it when roommates are SO FRIKKEN ANNOYING
eeeerrrrrrrggggggggggggg SO ANNOYING every sound every snicker every choked garbled laugh out of the nose at the TV of all things pulease i am glad you are not in here so glad but oh wait the apartment is so small we're all always there all the time in each others faces the frikken 4 hours a day we're all home together. togetherness is overrated

(later) I am tired, Fat fat fAT of everything fat of anger fat of lipids fat of air fat on nothing fat on my own self self inflated self debated self destructed baby if only, I wish, throw away it all I wish I could not die but start over but be someone else. I see into other peoples houses and I wonder what they're like what they do how they feel how their parents and kids feel what kind of knickknacks they have on their mantle what grades they got what they chose and why. why am I so curious about this all is everyone else too?



i heart wilma and THAT IS IT

So la dee da.. This week has been wonderouis - 3 tests- organic chemistry, biochem, and organic lab. . GOOD LORD . . Why was i ever a science major? OH YEA i FORGOT i am actaully ENJOYING organic chem II.. well as much as possible anyway. I studied my ass off, and even went to the Chemistry Resource Center. Casey = dork. BUT WHO IS CASEY? yes i acctually yelled that (who is casey). It was in a moment of confusion about the identitiy of a boy in my psych class, and i got confused, and we all know that happens easily. But really who is casey? a wilma loving loud blond. YAY!! wilma was abused last night. She's just so much fun to throw around and hit people with i couldnt resist.

So anyway. i have garlic breath. AND I LIKE IT. Oh and kennie the biochem test was COMPLETELY based on the questions from the end of class and was fairly easy, esp considering i studied for approx. 3 hours TOTAL. And a little reading. But whatever. Enough of this school thing. I think i will go study. Oh. Erm. Tonight = laundry night because the sock drawer = 1 pair of christmas socks with wholes in them. I don't even have any Tshirts left! what is the world coming to?

ok enough of this blathering peace out yo